life is not so much good right now

I'm sick. Really sick. Like, I really can't remember the last time I was *this* sick. I know it's been years.

So, I'm miserable.

But, that's not enough. If this had been last weekend, I would still have been miserable. But that would have pretty much been the extent of that.

This weekend, though, I'm also going to be missing a lot.

I've been looking forward to this weekend for a while, even before it was as busy as it was supposed to be. There were a few more things going on this weekend that we knew we couldn't do because we were so busy.

Today, there was a holiday thing in my department at work that I was actually kind of looking forward to.

Tomorrow, the husband and I are scheduled to have lunch with my niece and her boyfriend, who live in New York, but who are currently in town.

Tomorrow night, a friend is having a gathering, and those are always fun.

Sunday, the husband and I were going to spend a couple hours in the morning at Disneyland.

And then Sunday night, it's the Rockapella Christmas show.


But now that I'm miserably sick, I'm in no shape or mood to do anything, not to mention that I don't want to spread my sickness to other people (and trying not to infect the husband in the process).

So, I didn't go to work today.

I've cancelled lunch tomorrow with my niece and her boyfriend.

I won't be going to the gathering Saturday night. I'll have to live vicariously through the stories the husband tells me when he gets back.

The husband will be going to Disneyland on his own on Sunday to do the shopping that we were going to do.


The only thing I will be doing this weekend is going to the Rockapella concert. It's the last time I'm going to see Kevin, and I'm not missing it. Maybe I'll bring a scarf or something so I don't have to breathe on people. We'll see how I'm doing come Sunday afternoon when it's time to get ready to go.


There was a week in September and a week in October when we were doing other stuff, and it felt like I might be getting sick then, but that never materialized, so I was glad for that since I was then able to enjoy those activities. This weekend, I'm not as lucky.


So, yeah, I'm throwing myself a pity party, and no one else is invited.